"You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." -Counting Crows

Why We're Here...

My husband David and I delivered a stillborn Baby Boy that we loved, and wanted. Our first and only son, Logan, had Down Syndrome. Our daughter's smile is a little light in the darkness. She turned one year old three days after our sweet Logan tip-toed away on January 24, 2009. After 2 1/2 years we found out we were having another baby, whom we affectionatly called Rudy. Just shy of 6 weeks we found out Rudy was Ectopic. Rudy was surgically removed on May 26, 2011 delivering another blow to our already broken hearts.


Because even if you think everyone has forgotten...

...There is usually someone out there who remembers. Crystal over at Calvin's Cupcakes remembered Logan's third anniversary on January 24th and made this for us.

So many times we go around feeling like we are alone in our misery. No one remembers that you were pregnant, that there was a living being here on this earth that looked just like you or your beloved. People forget that every day you pine for that tiny soul. People forget that shoving their big bellies in your face, or their newborns reminds you of how broken and lost you really are, what you've lost, what you may never have again... Its human nature to forget, maybe God's grace. I dunno. Out of sight, out of mind. We can't begrudge them [even if secretly we want to poke them in their perfect world, everything functions as it should, ignorant and blissful little eye!] and just when you think that every last soul on this earth (except maybe your beloved) has forgotten that you had a precious baby once too, someone comes along with a nudge to tell you they remember.

Thanks Crystal.

3 comments:

lost--for--words said...

What a sweet thing for her to do! It is extremely hurtful that as time passes, our babies drift away from the minds of others. Extremely, extremely difficult to handle, when like you said, they are all you can think about but nobody else seems to realize it.

Crystal Theresa said...

♥ I think that there are probably more people that remember our babies... but they don't realize that we don't know that unless they tell us. I'm so glad to be able to honor Logan with you.

Claire said...

I am so sorry for your losses. I lost my little boy in October and already it feels like he has been forgotten by many friends and family. The majority don't even mention him. It must mean so much to have had Logan remembered and recognised. Sending you a hug x

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