The elliptical machine is making me cry!

I had a mini breakdown on the elliptical today. I don't know why. Maybe I'm frustrated that I can't seem to loose any weight even though I am trying the best that I can. Maybe it was the release of stress and tension and emotions that I thought I was coping with, but maybe am just hammering down into submission. Maybe when I exercise it all bubbles to the surface. It makes it hard to breathe when you're doing cardio...and sobbing. I wasn't thinking about Logan, but I just started to sob. Sometimes I feel like that with rage too. I won't be thinking about anything in particular and I'll feel this overwhelming sense to throw something through the window. Not just throw, but hurl it with as much effort as I can muster.

What do you do when there is more rage and sorrow than one body can hold?

My daughter bit my lip today when I kissed her. It really just seemed to fit.

I wanted to thank all of my cyber buds who send me such love and encouragement. You guys are one of the things that keeps me together. Most days I think I'm doing ok. But there is always that sneaking, gnawing feeling that at any moment I might flip out! I feel like I walk a tight rope. I walk a steady, and very thin line, daily. I think my husband gets it too. He seems to know when to grab ahold of me. Or maybe he's walking that same line and when I stumble there's no wear to fall but into him.