"You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." -Counting Crows

Why We're Here...

My husband David and I delivered a stillborn Baby Boy that we loved, and wanted. Our first and only son, Logan, had Down Syndrome. Our daughter's smile is a little light in the darkness. She turned one year old three days after our sweet Logan tip-toed away on January 24, 2009. After 2 1/2 years we found out we were having another baby, whom we affectionatly called Rudy. Just shy of 6 weeks we found out Rudy was Ectopic. Rudy was surgically removed on May 26, 2011 delivering another blow to our already broken hearts.


Probably wouldn't be this way...

I know this song is supposed to be about a husband...but I found myself relating to it today (except for the date part of course, the stuff in red). I find myself doing a lot of this lately. It seems like every break up song in the world reminds me of loosing Logan. Every sad song, every love song, every angry song... But with out Logan...I probably would be this way!

Probably Wouldn't Be This Way
-LeAnn Rimes

Got a date a week from Friday with the preacher's son
Everybody says he's crazy but I'll have to see
I finally moved to Jackson When the summer came
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on
It seems I'm doing more of that these days

-chorus-

I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt this bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh, you left so fast
Somtimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes feel that I'm so lucky
To have had the chance to love this much
So God, give me a moment's grace
Cause if I never see your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

Mama says, that I just shouldn't speak to you
Susan says, that I should just move on
You oughtta see the way these people look at me
When they see me round here talking to this stone
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind
But I just take it day by day

-chorus-

I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt this bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh, you left so fast
Somtimes I see you standing there
Sometimes I feel an angels touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky
To have had the chance to love this much
So God, give me a moment's grace
Cause if I never see your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't be this way

Got a date a week from Friday With the preacher's son
Everybody says I'm crazy Guess I'll have to see.

1 comments:

Kritta22 said...

Coming over from stepping stones. I read your comment from her religion post. I'm so sorry for your loss.

This song touched my heart too, but I thought I was crazy for even thinking of it. Thanks for sharing!

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