"You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." -Counting Crows

Why We're Here...

My husband David and I delivered a stillborn Baby Boy that we loved, and wanted. Our first and only son, Logan, had Down Syndrome. Our daughter's smile is a little light in the darkness. She turned one year old three days after our sweet Logan tip-toed away on January 24, 2009. After 2 1/2 years we found out we were having another baby, whom we affectionatly called Rudy. Just shy of 6 weeks we found out Rudy was Ectopic. Rudy was surgically removed on May 26, 2011 delivering another blow to our already broken hearts.


PCOS

According to my ultrasound it does appear that I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) since my ovaries are loaded with cysts. I won't be seeing the doctor until Sept 10th for all my results (from blood tests and what not). I'll know more then. I have started the Pill, much to my dismay. However, like my husband said to me "We won't be having a baby while you're messed up either." So, I'm trying all I can to get "fixed". I've done some reading on PCOS and see that eating a "clean" (unprocessed food) and Organic diet to aid in controlling the hormone jig the cysts seem to have my body in. That is proving to be difficult to do cold turkey, so I've decided to phase out the enormous amount of processed food in my home, and to try to buy Organic when I can find it. Meat and Dairy seem to be the most important, but I'm having trouble finding local organic meat. I did find a service that delivers organic fruits and veggies (www.doortodoororganics.com) to my home at no extra cost. And according to my 2 Organic friends, their prices are very competitive. And hey...they bring it to me!! I like that. I have another friend who's mother has access to organic beef, so she said next time she goes to get some she'll let me know (it's a couple hours away). But I'm still looking for eggs and cheese. I just finished reading the book Master Your Metabolism by J. Michaels and it is all about how to control your hormones using unprocessed and organic food and products. I found it worth the read. Anyhow, I'd love to hear from any of you who have PCOS and know more of what its about (aladyontheverge at gmail dot com). I'm relieved to finally be moving in a direction that is going to help get myself under control again. Apparently PCOS causes depression, weight gain, facial hair, fatigue and a list of other "issues" I've been fed up with for some time. So...moving forward, one step at a time.

I survived the U/S with out tears. I got pretty worked up in the waiting room. My tech read my file and then started in on how sorry she was, how awful it is...and that she lost a baby at 12 weeks so knows its really a hard thing. She was super nice and I enjoyed her chatter. But being in a different place, with a different tech, under different circumstances helped it not be such an ordeal I think. I was grateful for that.

12 comments:

Mrs. Spit said...

Organics are good, a diet very low in carbohydrate is also good. Email me and I'll give you some good books.

It's also worth asking about metformin.

Mary said...

Glad to see you are on your way to a healthier you. It is so important to keep our health. Greif alone is overwhelming anything to easy that is good.

Anonymous said...

Sorry about the diagnosis xo

Barbara said...

Crappy diagnosis but sometimes having a name to put to your symptoms helps. And I can see it already has! You're taking leaps in the right direction!

Hugs

xxx

Aunt Becky said...

Sending you love and shaking my fist at your diagnosis. I'm sorry, love.

Heather said...

Im glad to hear you made it through your stressful day. You may want to consider seeing an endocrinologist, who can monitor your hormones, especially higher insulin levels which are related to estrogen and progesterone levels being off with PCOS. Metformin helped regulate my "Aunt Flo" (and-BONUS- helped me lose 10 lbs), and exercise has been shown to be as effective as insulin reducing drugs in studies. My endocrinologist said to follow a diet similar to South Beach (not the more restrictive Phase 1 though). Wishing you success with managing the PCOS.

T said...

Thinking of you Heather...

Inanna said...

Low carbs for PCOS... cut out all things white (rice, potatoes, sugar, etc.) Which sucks, I know. :(

Michele said...

Do you know if you are insulin resistant with your PCOS. I have a severe case but never picked up the insulin resistance until pregnancy. I'd be happy to chat with you via email if you want. I was diagnosed in Oct 2007. For me, diet actually didnt help (organic vegetarian) but I think some of that may have been because I wasnt IR at the time.

lost--for--words said...

I stumbled across your blog from a link in a friend's blog. I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I'm so sorry for the loss of your Logan, I too lost a baby in April. She was born with Trisomy 18, which is similar to Downs Syndrome except a different chromosome is affected and it is always fatal. I very much feel your pain from the blog entries you've written. I find myself nodding along in agreement as you describe your pain and grief of losing your son. Lots of hugs and strength coming your way.

Mary said...

Heather, I hope you are feeling OK today. I just want to let you know that I nominated you for the Honest Scrap Award.

Molly said...

Sorry to hear about PCOS. That stinks but I hope treatment and diet help.

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