Relax, she's just pregnant!

Ok, this is sort of like a twitter post. We're on our way to have dinner with friends and at the last minute another couple was added. They're the original pregnant ones. The ones who go pregnant right when Logan died. I haven't seen her since Logan died, always a "reason" or "headache" on her end. So here we are, on our way, and I didn't really have time to prep for it. Which might be a good thing, not to obsesses and get myself all worked up prior to the event. I'm so nervous though. I wish I wasn't. Her baby shower is next week too, so I think this might be good. To see her prior to the shower. I hear she is quite large even at her 6 months. I hope I don't flip out or cry. I haven't been doing well lately, and though I seem to be on an upswing, I'm still nervous about my reaction to seeing her and her belly full of the little boy who graced this earth at the same time that my son left it. Life goes on right!? At least she gets her little boy. At least he is alive now. We all know how that can change in the blink of an eye. As much as I wish for my son, I hope for hers too. I hope that no one ever has to have a baby die. I wish my hope was enough to make that come true.
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