"You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." -Counting Crows
Why We're Here...
My husband David and I delivered a stillborn Baby Boy that we loved, and wanted. Our first and only son, Logan, had Down Syndrome. Our daughter's smile is a little light in the darkness. She turned one year old three days after our sweet Logan tip-toed away on January 24, 2009. After 2 1/2 years we found out we were having another baby, whom we affectionatly called Rudy. Just shy of 6 weeks we found out Rudy was Ectopic. Rudy was surgically removed on May 26, 2011 delivering another blow to our already broken hearts.
I wrote this for Logan's Scapbook:
Sweet baby, you tip-toed in and out so quietly, your life but a whisper in this world. Such a tiny hand that left an enormous imprint on this heart. My first son, how quickly we did part. A lifetime of love I have for you, now trapped in this heart that breaks a million times each day. Your eyes; a beauty I’ll never see, your cries; music for no ones ears and your smile is for God alone to enjoy. Sweet baby, you tip-toed in and out so quietly, but your life was no whisper in Mommy’s world.
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2 comments:
I'm desperately sorry for your loss - I truly am. I wish I could pull you through to the place I know you'll eventually find; the place where the pain is less intense and you can smile again and mean it. I know you'll get there, but I'm just so very, very sorry you can't be there right now. I ache for you. I do.
Mostly, I'm sorry Logan isn't with you, as he should be.
Please know I'm thinking of you and so grateful that my words helped. Thank you for telling me - for giving me that gift in the midst of your own grief. It gives meaning to my son's life in the most beautiful way possible, and I'm so thankful to you for that.
Keep writing and talking - and know that everything you're feeling is normal, and that you are not alone. I understand. Many of us understand all too well and are there for you if you need us to lean on.
We'll walk beside you and carry Logan in our hearts right along with you.
((((HUGS))))
Kristin (www.peanutsmom.blogspot.com)
Beautiful.
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