"You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." -Counting Crows

Why We're Here...

My husband David and I delivered a stillborn Baby Boy that we loved, and wanted. Our first and only son, Logan, had Down Syndrome. Our daughter's smile is a little light in the darkness. She turned one year old three days after our sweet Logan tip-toed away on January 24, 2009. After 2 1/2 years we found out we were having another baby, whom we affectionatly called Rudy. Just shy of 6 weeks we found out Rudy was Ectopic. Rudy was surgically removed on May 26, 2011 delivering another blow to our already broken hearts.

My birthday

My 32nd birthday is on Wednesday. I don't want a birthday. I don't want to celebrate anything. I don't want the phone calls, the good wishes. I don't want to get older. I don't want my eggs to get older, since they're obviously feeling kind of old as it is. I want to turn time back and not have it march on.
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Mrs. Spit said...

My first birthday after Gabe's death was very hard indeed.

Sending hugs.

angie said...

birthdays. ugh. ((hugs))

Lea said...

Heather... I hear you. We are so in that "don't want to celebrate, party, etc. mode" too. I just used the 'excuse' of my birthday for a quiet date with my husband. We needed it.
I hope you share some peace on Wednesday, however you spend it.


Shelley said...

I just wanted to offer you a very poor virtual hug. And if it isn't too weird - I'd like to welcome you to the DS community. I hope the Afghan stays as a special part of Logan's memory and of your family's life. You and your family and your precious Logan will be in my prayers. Take care

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Mary said...

No one can blame you. As long as you have the important people around you, it will still be a special day. Keeping you in my prayers.

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